"Son, you'll outgrow my lap but never my heart." My first baby. My first son.
Theres not much about you that's been easy. 22 hours in labor wasn't easy. pushing for over an hour to get you out wasn't easy. The sleepless nights while starting a new job wasn't easy. The fact that you started walking at 8 months old and I couldn't keep up wasn't easy. The fact that you have a temper like your dad and you're impatient like your mom isn't easy. If there's one thing that is "easy" it would have to be loving you. We can have the worst day together filled with temper tantrums, refusing to eat anything I give you because you're being picky, and screaming for no reason other than you want to and yet when we lay down at night to go to bed and you're resting in my arms it erases the whole day and becomes the best day ever. I watch your peaceful face as you lightly snore and while I hate to listen to snoring yours is the cutest thing I've ever heard. The easiest part of life is loving you. Being your mom is so wonderful and terrifying at the same time. I don't want to ever let you down in any way. There will be times when I can't give you everything you want. and that's ok. But I never want there to be a time when I can't give you something you need. Failing you would be the worst kind of failure i could ever imagine. Bringing you into this world I didn't know what to expect. I didn't expect that I could love someone so much that just looking at them makes my heart want to explode into millions of pieces. I didn't expect I could be so angry at the fact that someone just messed up my perfectly clean living room and then I laugh because you look at me with this "what did i do?" face and say "momma?" like you've done nothing wrong. I didn't expect my life would change as much as it has with you in it and now I never want to live it without you. You will never know how much I love you. You forever hold a special place in my heart and I can only hope I hold one in yours too. I know that people say daughters are best friends for life, but, God knew what he was doing when he gave me you. One day I hope you think your "lucky" to have me as a mom. I know one thing for sure. I'm the most lucky to call you my son.
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AuthorJessica Hatcher, 24, Anthem, AZ. Archives
May 2017
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